Time With God

So my 6 year old son, Brandon, started first grade today. He did half day kindergarten so this is the first time he’s been in school for a full 7 hours. That sounds like and seems like such a long time to me. I’m having some heartache today about it. He’s really shy and I’m always concerned about him being in large groups and how he will interact. Mainly though, I simply will just miss him. Having come off the summer, I was able to see him everyday just about anytime I wanted when I wasn’t out with customers since I work from home, and I think it has spoiled me a bit. I do consider it a blessing to work from home. It’s been great this summer when I go down for lunch or take a break, I can spend time with my wife or with the boys, Brandon and Conner. Now, Brandon is out of the house for 7 hours a day, 5 days a week. He’s doing things on his own, eating his lunch on his own, all the things I assume most parents worry about at this age. But again, mostly, I will just miss him.

So I wonder how God feels about the time we do not spend with him? Does He miss us? It is always hard for me to admit it, but I know God loves me a lot more than I love my son (ouch). It has to hurt His heart when He doesn’t get to spend time with me. And basically, that is all my doing. Unlike Brandon being at school where he is physically apart from me and I can’t be with him at all, I can be with God anytime I want to. At home, in the car, at meetings, wherever. But, the reality is that I don’t. And if He has the same amount of the heartache over it that I have right now…probably more actually…I don’t want to put Him through that. I need to spend time with my Father, He needs it to.

“But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.” Matthew 6:33

-Monte